Physician Healer
Discovering Self
This past week, there was one patient who really stood out for me. He was someone who was on my mind because of what he said. Mind you, I have heard those words many times before from other folks, but this time, there was something in his eyes, on his face, perhaps something from his heart that screamed out just simply shook me. I didn’t let on, of course, but I was moved with tremendous sadness.
At first glance, there was a very casual admission of having had a chronic autoimmune disorder for years now. Off hand, he appeared to be doing well enough, after all, he was seeing his therapist regularly. As we concluded the visit, he said,
“I’m just not happy with what is going on with my health, my body, with this life, having this disease. Most days I don’t feel well and I was told by my specialists that I will never get better. So, I’m wondering what’s the point, this life? But then, another part of me tells me that thinking that way is just not right. I just want to feel better. What can I do?”
The first thing I noticed was that he acknowledged that there were at least 2 different people with whom he was dealing. So, I asked him if he noticed that there were at least 2 different voices. He nodded and said that he did. I reminded him that one voice is just his mental chatter, the egoic mind, the annoying roommate who just doesn’t stop talking. This roommate lives there 24/7 and has no filter, always succeeds in making us feel badly and always asking for proof of everything we dare to believe before we take that leap.
Immediately, he appeared relieved that there were 2 voices of thought and right away he understood what I was talking about. I explained that he had a series of underlying belief systems or programming that had been placed there from birth to age 7 (according to Eckhart Tolle and Dr. Bruce Lipton) but that those beliefs can be changed over time through daily practice. I also explained that as much as it seems obvious that his health issue is the cause of his happiness, it really is not. This did surprise him.
What many of us don’t realize is that whatever is external to the mind, including any health issue ailing our body, is only triggering a sense of not enough-ness that was already established there long ago but perhaps never felt because there was not a proper trigger. The egoic mind always sets us up with an expectation of how we should be, act, and think. It wants us to be a certain way, to be a specific way. However, it is our birthright to be exactly who and what we are, to show up as we are in any present moment.
Much of the research in personal development talks about how the majority of us don’t know who we really are. It is a fact that we are actually not our name. We are definitely not our health status or lack thereof. Who we are is just a being occupying space, in existence in this moment and in every moment thereafter. We are never our past nor are we ever our future. We are always just this moment, and that is saying a lot.
I was just thinking today that if you think about it, we gave away our power from the time we are born because we didn’t even choose our names. And then, as each year passes, we passively absorb what is going on around us in the environment. We learn how to behave from the adults in our lives. By the time we are old enough to express our own ideas and wants, we lose the courage to act upon them because our subconscious programming is automatically running the system and we feel comfortable relying on that. But, the restlessness is there.
I believe that our entire lives are meant for discovery, the discovery of self. We want to know who we are. Who are we really? Until we know the answer to that question, we don’t know what we want out of this life. Without knowing what we really want in this life time, we remain wandering listlessly, being bounced around like a pinball, being pushed this way and that by our external environment.
In returning to the gentleman above, I could sense a level of relief when I pointed out that his identity, whoever he is now was not his disease. Who he is was not the voice that told him to the effect that his life was pointless.
We discussed having him start a daily practice of simple meditation, just sitting with himself in silence and listening to the space. We then went through a series of intentional statements geared towards creating a new programming of his beliefs about himself and who his paradigms labeled him to be. He was encouraged to commit to writing out and then saying the statements out loud several times a day, definitely in the morning as soon as he wakes up before he even checks his phone and again before he goes to bed.
He was also encouraged to repeat those statements out loud throughout the day especially if he needed to shift his mood quickly. Remember that through consistent repetition, the lid to our cookie jar that had been sealed shut long ago will weaken, loosen, and eventually fall away (please refer to last week’s issue) and we will then have access and the opportunity to change the contents of our jar with things that are aligned with the authentic us.
I know that I cannot control what others do on their own. But, I left this person with hope, something he didn’t have when he first stepped into the room. Did I leave him better than how he was before I spoke with him? I hope so.
As I thought again about this individual and reflected upon my own ups and downs, I wondered if he could turn his mood around if suddenly his disease went away. Maybe for a short time, but the happiness would be short-lived because it would be conditional, dependent upon an external reason. The key is always to feel the happiness now with the current situation in tow. And so, as I had a fleeting moment of doubt and worry earlier today, gave myself a list of “if-then” scenarios that if they only occurred, I would immediately turn the mood around.
Of course, I was aware that everything conditional was only a game of self-deception. And, although I knew better, I still felt myself feeling that moment of lack without a substantial reason. Through the use of intentional statements combined with accessing several Meridian access points, the feeling shifted back to states of love and gratitude. Remember that the energy of love and gratitude is at the highest level. Whether or not we can heal from any disease state from persistent and consistent daily practice of expressing gratitude, mentally visualizing shifting the future of what we want to feeling as if we already have it, we lose nothing. On the contrary—we have everything to look forward to.
If we remember that the body is indeed the instrument of the mind, then we have nothing to lose but everything to gain. So, if I asked you who you are and what is it that you want from this life and how is it that you can contribute in service to others in this life time, how would you answer? I offer you to reflect upon these questions and to remember everything you are grateful for this very moment.
Remember that you are unique—a one-of-a-kind. Never let anyone convince you otherwise, not even your mind.
Relaxation and Meditation
1) I invite you to revisit last week’s newsletter for the pictures of the Meridian points to access or the new YouTube Channel videos from the Physician Healer series. You will also find examples of intentional statements here and in previous published issues
2) Feel free to compose your own personal intentional statements that may have more intimate meaning for you
3) Intentional statements to use with Meridian meditation for today
—How am I feeling stronger each day that I didn’t notice before?
—How am I doing better and better with time that I didn’t notice before?
—How am I feeling more peaceful each day that I didn’t notice before?
—How am I becoming more resilient each day that I didn’t notice before?
—How am I able to do everything I want that I couldn’t before?
—How is my life changing for the better that I didn’t notice before?
—How am I now living a life of ease that I wasn’t before?
—How am I so grateful for my life that I didn’t notice before?
Sending you all many blessings of peace and light today and everyday. Thank you for reading. If you found anything in this article that resonated with you, please remember to LIKE, COMMENT, SHARE and SUBSCRIBE.
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With Love and Gratitude🙌♥️
Celeste Amaya, MD