Physician Healer
An Anniversary Celebration
I wanted to start this issue with 2 words of gratitude,
“THANK YOU!”
Thank you to all of you who have supported this blog through your readership and subscription. I am grateful for all of you who have reached out regularly and have generously asked questions and commented on the platform or via email to give feedback on what has been life changing for you and/or your loved ones. I feel so very fortunate to have this opportunity to give heartfelt appreciation to my Physician Healer family for the past 12 months. And as we enter into March of 2022, I am excited and look forward to traveling this journey with you for the next 12 months.
Recently, I received a message from Katie, who works on the Substack.com platform’s community team. She reminded me that I had reached the one year milestone of writing consistently. I had forgotten how long I had been writing, that I had begun a year ago. At that moment, it had skipped my mind that it was the one year anniversary. Her heartfelt congrats meant a lot to me. Really made my day. Of all the various goals in life I had accomplished, this meant the world to me. Perhaps it was because of the mindset I had when I chose to start writing this blog. I chose this platform because I was in search of a companion, a friend, who would be an awesome listener to anything I wished to unload from my mind, heart and soul, and who would never judge me for being me.
Without contributing a word, without argument, without imposing restrictions, my companion allowed anyone and everyone to read the contents without offering judgment or opinion. So, for the past year, I graciously shared my ideas, personal stories, feelings, life tools—all in the name of having my catharsis be of service to others. My motto remains that if even one person found one thing resonating in a meaningful way, then I was successful.
Much has happened for me since Feb of 2021, as perhaps for many of you, as well. Not only did the birth of the newsletter represent the start of a project that came into fruition whereas just several months prior, it was just a quiet whisper of an idea, but it was also the time of tremendous change in personal consciousness for me in the months to follow.
Probably one of the most life changing events in the last 12 months was my relocation from my home state where I was born and had lived for the majority of my life (except my medical school years) to the other coast clear on the other side of the country. In all my life I have never entertained a ginormous move like that, so no one was more surprised than I when, as they say, all the stars were aligned and God and his universe nudged me along and then pulled me. These 12 months of writing on Substack presented me with more clarity as to my real purpose here and how I was to be of service to others.
For those of you who have followed me here or in the office, you know I have always emphasized the importance of having a meditation practice everyday. Just sitting, listening, and allowing the silence to be heard gave me the rich soil to plant the garden I ended up cultivating. As part of my anniversary celebration, I am going to now share a bit of a significant event that happened in the last 12 months that took me a long time to really see it for what it was. Until most recently, I kept asking why did this happen to me? As I started to piece together everything of which I was aware, everything cleared and eventually made sense to me.
Some years past, my family and I decided to help out an elderly person who lived with a sick dog. She said that the dog was everything to her. One day, the vet told her that the dog was ill and would need IV fluids. She was devastated and had no idea how to approach this. Because my family and I were animal lovers and I had always grown up with animals in my life, I knew how to do it and offered to help. And, so what was an estimated 3 weeks of life left for the dog surprisingly became 3 years with the help from me and my family. This entailed going to her house and administering the fluids every other day faithfully for 3 whole years.
To show appreciation, she offered to reimburse us for all that we did for her dog. Of course we were thrilled to accept. We saw, however, that as time drew near the end for her dog, she began to show signs of bitterness and anger. We just naturally thought that it was because she was anticipating the inevitable. What came after that was nothing any of us would expect. One day at the end of the 3rd year, she decided to euthanize her loving dog. After that, she demanded all of her payment for her dog’s services to be returned, stating that she had never agreed to pay for any of the 3 years’ worth of services. Instead, she stated that it was a loan. What followed after that were threats about how she was going to take me and my family down. This was both incredibly disturbing and shocking. Believing that she had said all those things out of grief, we let it go. Maybe she just needed some space to process.
She waited about 2 years after she euthanized her dog, before she decided to attack from a different direction. As it turned out, it appeared that it was more than the money she was after at the end. She filed a report to the board crying elder abuse, stating on record that the 3 years never happened but merely just a few days. I remembered thinking,
“What the hell? She can’t be serious. Everyone will see right through that. She won’t get away with it.”
The long and short of it was that despite my immaculate (free of lawsuits) practice record for 25 years, I was reprimanded for not drawing up a contract detailing the service done for her dog, even though there no loan papers she had drawn up either. If they taught us this in med school, I must have slept through it.
The conclusion was that although there was enough proof that the services for 3 years had indeed been rendered, they had to be performed free of charge. Because of my degree, they said I was held at a higher level of expectation. And, yes, you heard right, I repeat, this was a case about a dog.
This case taught me lessons beyond anything I had ever encountered. I’ve always grown up with the belief that it is right to help others in need. As I grew older, I learned that it was also ok to receive reimbursement for helping, as a way to respect my time. In this case, what started as extending a heartfelt hand became something unexpectedly ugly. Naturally, of course, those closest to me warned me never to be nice again and to leave people to their own suffering and demise. As tempting and logical as that suggestion seems, I realized that if I changed the way I am, then I have succeeded in allowing them to win. If this has taught me anything, it is that resilience is about getting up after being taken down.
I started to gather my tools. I remembered that people who act in a hateful way towards us actually hate themselves. They need more love, not more hate. I’ve spent time in meditation initially to allow the shame to be seen and move through to guide me to transform all of it to forgiveness for what she did and everyone else who had been unpleasant and hateful. This is not to condone their actions, but to free us to move forward and allow our light to shine even brighter for others. Is the forgiveness complete? I don’t know yet. I would have to see what the reflection of the external mirror shows me to know what kind of vibrational frequency I am in. On the other side of pain and discomfort is growth, always. That is how we learn.
Lastly, the fact that I have always felt that some divine assistance was always with me, and that moving me forward, even relocating me clear across to the other side of the country was no coincidence. In my line of work, I have learned there are no such things as coincidences, just synchronicities. Through years of practicing meditation, there is a knowing within that none of us are ever alone. We are always connected to a higher power, whether it is God or higher intelligence or source, depending on your religion or faith, and so we are guided, watched and taken care of. All things happen for a reason. Everything that happened, is happening and will happen did, is, and will or it wouldn’t be so.
If you or know anyone who needs help to move through tough times, message me in the comments to learn step by step how I did it.
Meditation and Relaxation
(Please check out last week’s issue for the photos of the Meridian access points and for more intentional statements)
You may also want to add the following if they resonate with you:
—Why do I have so much to be grateful for no matter what’s happening?
—Why am I so resilient no matter what’s happening?
—Why do I feel peaceful no matter what’s happening?
—Why do I feel deep joy no matter what’s happening?
—Why do I feel so much love no matter what’s happening?
—Why am I able to forgive for myself no matter what’s happening?
—Why am I able to attract great things no matter what’s happening?
—Why am I able to grow from all pain no matter what’s happening?
Thank you for reading and I hope you found something of value in this issue. Remember to LIKE, COMMENT, SHARE and SUBSCRIBE. Remember to check out my new YouTube channel with insights from patient cases and Meridian-meditation tutorials to guide you along during challenging times. If you find the YouTube videos helpful, please click LIKE and the BELL alert and remember to COMMENT, SHARE, and SUBSCRIBE so I can continue to post more in the series.
Until next time, I send you all lot’s of peace, joy and light!
With Love and Gratitude🙌♥️
Celeste Amaya, MD
